It has been a very long time since I have taken the time to post. I am still having medical problems and am working more and more toward getting well. A lot has changed in my life. I no longer cling to the hope that things will ever work out between me and a certain person. I have moved on and have found a couple of gentlemen that interest me. One I have been in constant contact with, the other comes and goes. (typical male) While the one I talk to just about every night is very nice and he does excite me to a point, it is the one that doesn't get on line much that drives me to distraction. He is real time and has many of the same interests that I have and is an expert in some of the things that I am curious about. I am changing things about me daily and for the better. While I am still unwell, yet, I get stronger daily. Like the heart above my feelings for a certain person will slowly fade. While the dreams of becoming more than a sub/slave to a certain individual might be dashed against the rocks, I know that out there somewhere is the one who will be what I need just as I will be what he seeks.

I have only 8 more weeks and I will be done with all my core classes in school and then will only have a few electives to do then I will graduate. But, it doesn't end there for I have chosen to continue on. I will have an associates in Contemporary Management and hopefully that will get me a job where I can work a set schedule so that I can go back and get my accounting degree.

So that is where I stand at the moment. A little sickly but getting emotionally stronger each day